He’s holding me, he’s squeezing me tightly. It hurts, his
touch it busies, it creates wounds that last eternity. His hand is holding mine
like he will never let go, his gaze is locked on my face and it will never
leave. His eyes threaten, they hurt, they destroy but I can never leave. All I
can do is smile away with a heart stabbed with the dagger of despair. Suddenly
the sensation I had felt many times before returns to my limbs, the feeling of ice
cold water dripping off of my still body. I feel like I’m swimming in a river
of ice, it’s almost unbearable but my mouth is frozen in a scream. I can’t
move, it’s choking me, ice cold fire streaks my lungs and my head is throbbing
with agony. Suddenly I feel the familiar rhythm humming in my chest and I know
it’s safe. I take in a deep breath my chest expanding and falling until it too
is in a familiar rhythm. For the first time in a month I take my eyes off of
his and look to the floor. I drop the silk fabric of my dress I had held so
tightly onto for as long as I can remember. I shake off the lingering feeling
of exhaustion, I couldn’t be asleep tonight, I had been asleep for so long I
had forgotten what it felt like to be awake. My whole body can move freely now
except for my hand, still gripped with crushing intensity in his hand. I jerk
my body away from his, from Aries, I pull back with all the strength I have but
his fingers dig into my veins with searing torture. I can’t breathe, the pain
is overwhelming. I pull back inch by inch until I retrieve my hand. I can feel
my heartbeat thrash around in my fingertips, there is now a bracelet of raw and
bloody skin where he had held it. I look at him with hatred, with fiery
contempt in my eyes. I shake my head then take a few steps away. The next thing
I knew I was running, I was running towards a man I knew would be on the next
floor at the end of the hallway.
I know
the way better than the sound of my own heartbeat. I can feel healing warmth,
the warmth of knowing I’ll soon be by his side, his arm will wrap and my waist
like it was made to fit, like two puzzle pieces. I could already feel his soft
skin pressing against mine; we would be together forever without anyone else. I
would dance with him for an eternity if not just for tonight. My feet pound
against the floor harder than my heartbeat that throbs towards him. Suddenly I
arrive. I peer cautiously around the corner. In the full light of the moon, he
stands still for now. I run to his frozen figure and jump into his arms. All at
once I feel his skin grow cold, I feel the ice of his veins dripping away as if
thawing. Suddenly his arms are wrapped around me, the skin growing tender and
warm by the second. I turn to look at his eyes, his eyes so penetrating and
perfect as if sculpted by angels. I can hear him breathe and soon I am pulled
into his soft grasp. I close my eyes as if in heaven and we begin, his powerful
legs moving against mine, his arms holding onto me closely. We had danced every
night we could together, moving to the music that connects our minds. I spin,
my arms moving gracefully like an angel in Heaven. We float in the air like ice
skaters, our legs moving together and apart, our bodies connecting and
breaking. We move together like paintbrushes, weaving colors of art on the
floor. He throws me into the air. I am not worried; I know he will catch me. I
do a graceful spin in the air when our bodies connect again. He pulls me close
to his heart and we twirl together into the moonlight. We move as water. I knew
in my heart I could dance with him forever our minds connect through the
rhythm, through the music in our hearts. We are one dancer moving like waves,
undulating and perfect. We dance for hours, never ending though our lungs are
pounding. He gives me a look when he tosses me into the air again; it is almost
over. The ballad of our hearts is coming to an end. With one last graceful turn
we come together, our lips brushing. I’m in Heaven. I pull back but there is an
odd look in his eyes, a sorrow and despair deeper than the abysses of the
night.
I can
read his thoughts by looking in his eyes and in a second I am crying. I am
sobbing into his chest. Tonight it was his last night, he was going to be taken
away by them. But he’s brushing my hair softly and I can tell his eyes are
begging and pleading. He wants me to come with him, to leave it all behind. My
heart stops I feel cold, leave everything behind? I don’t think I can do it.
Would it be right? He reads the sadness in my eyes and holds to me tighter as
though to reassure me. I had to run away with him. I look out the window; the
sun is peeking up behind the mountains, the light bearing on my heart, a curse.
He pulls away from me and holds out his hand. We both knew I would take it. I reach
out my arm, our hands about to connect. Suddenly I’m being pulled away rough
powerful arms dragging me back to where I came from. I see my lover he’s trying
to run, to pull me back but he’s no match. I struggle harder than ever my limbs
feeling stiff. Tears run down my cheeks like a waterfall as I fight the
powerful man holding onto me. My lover has taken a hold of my hand and pulls
but suddenly it’s all over. He has to let go. I can feel his hand become icy
and hard around mine, the grip tighter than a snake. I
can see the look of despair wash over his face. There were two things he knew,
he knew what was happening and he knew we’d never be together. His eyes said a
sweet goodbye to mine. Suddenly he’s still and his grip is no longer around my
hand. I can see him in the light of the rising sun, I can’t help but cry. I
fought with all my might but there was no way Aries was going to let me go.
Soon I
was dragged back onto a pedestal; my limbs are becoming stiff once more. He
grabs my wrist tightly, and I knew this time he would never let go, I could
never escape and I would always be with the one I hated most. All at once he is
still but his grip is tighter than I could imagine. Suddenly the same icy
feeling wraps around me, coldly embracing me. Tears drip off of my face as it
overwhelms me and suddenly I have turned into a statue again and this time
forever, my love was gone. All that could race in my mind that was shutting
down was his sweet face and suddenly, everything is black as my heart turns
back to stone.
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